Sometimes, I wonder how God could ever use me. I have a sinful past. And even though I am a Christian now, I still make mistakes. I’m an average woman, wife, and mom. I am not a public speaker. I don’t have any formal writing or Biblical training. Who am I to think I could do anything to help God further His kingdom?
I stood at the kitchen sink, dishrag in hand, feeling as though I was stuck in a monotonous cycle of household chores. No matter how clean my kitchen might become, a new dish would appear within moments of the sink being emptied. A trail of crumbs would be scattered about the floor as soon as the floor had been swept. Freshly folded clothes hadn’t been put away before the laundry room had a new pile forming in the corner.
If you are anything like me, at night, my mind wanders to all the events of the day. Oftentimes than not, my mind goes to everything I may have done wrong in the day. I typically think of how I could have handled a situation parenting better that day. Or how I could have responded to one of my kids or husband better that day. I recall the happy moments as well. But then, those negative ones creep back in and I am now laying there wide awake, feeling like a failure.
Many people don’t know who they are. Don’t believe me? Check out the best-selling books or the trending podcasts. Spend a bit of time on social media. Everywhere you look you are bound to find people shouting out: “Who am I?” If you remain unconvinced, take a sheet of paper and write “Who am I?” at the top and see if you can fill out the entire sheet of paper in the next five minutes without slipping into answering the question of who you are by describing what you do.
Just as I set aside extra time to be with our friends, give yourself time to sit with God in a quiet, special setting. Let yourself sink into the idea of enjoying a meal together, as David encouraged in Psalm 34:8, “Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good!”